For all my verbal posturing about being ok, there are some days when I'm just… not.

You go about your day, thinking about that other person, wanting to call, but you just… don't.

And then you discover something that just rips apart what's left of what was your slowly mending heart. You think you can't possibly cry anymore than you already have. But you just… do.

How do you deal when you find out that less than six months after your 18 year relationship fell apart, the person that you still love despite it all, has fallen for someone else?

Today, I just… can't.